I’m bad at writing “about me” types of pages, so I thought I’d write a few paragraphs on Who the Deities that I worship (or honour) are.
Loki is Who came to me first. My relationship with Him is a personal, intimate living thing. It’s my duty and my pleasure; a gift and an obligation, my binding and my freedom. He knows me as I seek to know Him, knowing that I can never completely understand all that He is. I love Him beyond all measure, and He gives me His love in return — and what a love it is. He is the harsh teacher I sometimes need; He inspires my awe; I call Him Lord and Beloved; He is the first and the last of my thoughts every day.
Loki’s mother Laufey is the Deity Who is closest to me, after Loki. I perceive Her as an Ásynja rather than a Jotun — as the extant sources tell us nothing of Her origin, I go with what I see: an Ásynja with a wild streak, a welcoming Goddess Who loves everything green and growing. She is pragmatic, unflappable and among all the Deities I honour, She is most motherly towards me. I came to her originally, asking Her to teach me something I wanted to do for Loki — She did, and has been there ever since. She doesn’t have a shrine, but She has claimed a dwarf willow that I came by as Hers.
At some point, a while after I encountered Loki for the first time, I included Sigyn in my practice for a while. I honoured Her mostly as Loki’s beloved wife; only later did I realise that She has a lot to teach, and I a lot to learn from Her. Where Loki is dynamics, movement, Sigyn is steadfast and patient, and those are qualities that are a valued influence on me. I have experienced Her as friendly but direct, and as Someone Who doesn’t mince words.
Bragi is the most paternal of my Deities toward me. Through my background as a singer — a background that reaches a long time back — I found I could connect to Him. He may not be the classic God of Music, but He certainly has a way around the fine arts. As poetry was a means to commemorate historical events, so is part of my practice as a musician and singer. Bragi is there in the background mostly, but I have given offerings to Him on occasion.
Frigga first came to me when I encountered an aspect of Loki I wasn’t sure how to deal with. She showed me, alongside Sigyn, what I needed to do and what Loki wanted of me, at that point. I wasn’t expecting Frigga at all, but She came to me and offered Her advice and help — in a way I have considered Her a friend ever since. My honouring of Her is usually in the form of maintaining my home, and the works. I have a high appreciation of keepint things clean and in order, even though sometimes it’s a challenge when things start to go haywire.
I like Njördr. He’s not Someone I work with closely, or often, but sometimes I need to be more diplomatic than I am. He helped me resolve a conflict peacefully rather than to escalate it (which is what I would have done).
That wasn’t my idea; it was Loki’s (and probably Odin’s), and it’s a fairly recent development. Loki has sent me to learn from Odin in His aspect as the Wanderer. It’s something that, for reasons specific to my relationship with Loki, I can learn from Odin better than Loki, although They are certainly both more than capable Wanderers. Odin came into my life with all the subtlety of a ton of bricks stacked on a hippopotamus, and I feel there is a lot of work to be done. I’m wary and skittish like a young horse. He has been engaging and congenial as far as I can tell now, though, which really isn’t all that far. I have given Odin an area on Loki’s altar to focus my work with Him at first, but later on, I had a small shrine for Odin up and running.
Baldr is another God Whom I met by virtue of Loki (virtue? He asks me with a wry grin). As unlikely as this pair appears to be, it has been a double pleasure to work with Them both. Baldr is overwhelmingly beautiful, and practically took me by storm. I admit freely that I have somewhat of a Deity crush on Baldr, and probably will for a good, long while. When I’ve encountered Him so far, He was always very much a living God, a young God with a crushingly huge responsibility. Baldr has a lot to teach about facing one’s biggest fears, and I hope that He will gain more followers as time goes by.